I am childlike and controlled. He is pure and beautiful.
Lying on hardwood floors and staring up at the blank ceiling, my thoughts turn to another time, another place, another day.
Doth the lady protest too much?
Aye, yes she does.
Spinning on the edges of sanity. Dancing naked in your room. Throwing your hands up in the air and screaming in delight.
Staring for hours into each other’s eyes.
Responsibilities weight weary on my soul. Never ending pursuit of interests and loves.
Never enough time. Never time enough to stroke each other slowly, to suckle the sweetness off the skin. Never enough to just take today for today, and not worrying about tomorrow.
There are places in my mind that are always free. The need to always reach for my dreams. The restlessness that causes me to hunger for all of life, to grab each bite viciously and to swallow it without tears.
Dreams are meant to come true. Dreams are meant to push you forward. Dreams are a part of my life, I will never stop! Not till there is no breath in my body, and I can no longer think or feel anymore.
This is my life. This is how it is going to be. I give you all of this. Is it shameful to ask the same in return?
No, it is not.
Always equal is the way I am. A Jill of all Trades that hungers to travel the world, to climb the highest mountain, to pursue everything with a vengeance. To learn, to see, to do it ALL! To never regret the mistakes, the heartaches, the missed connections.
Without these things, I am nothing.
To ask me to be less is asking me to die.
Never ask me to want for less, for my blood will be on your hands.
Tell me you love me. Tell me that I am the one that is worth the pain for, that I am the one that makes you forget everything else. Tell me that you kissed me in the past, in the present, in the future. Tell me that there is nothing worth dying over…
Except for the love of one.